It's the Big Lug

So, I'm on the brink of returning to work from maternity leave. I will have a lot on my plate upon my return - work stuff, mommy stuff, wife stuff, house stuff, and somewhere in there, hopefully fun stuff. Somewhere along the way in the past three months of maternity leave my priorities shifted without me even realizing it. Sure, I had to tend to Simon's needs without hesitation, I realized it when that happened. But now that he's on more of a schedule (ha! by schedule I mean I KNOW when he'll wake me up at night, and I can assume he'll sleep at some point during the day) it's become clearer to me that even as he becomes more predictable, he's not taking up any less of my time. Also, here's the surprise, I don't WANT him to take up less time. Sure I find myself putting him down for a while to get some housework done, sitting him in my lap so I can check email - even if he starts to fuss - just so I can reply to that one more person. But if I could give up working, I'd spend all day with him, gladly ignoring the pedicure I need, and the yoga class I want to take.

So when I return to work I'm determined to be efficient. I want to get as much done in my hours as possible so that maybe I can leave on time, or early, and get Simon from daycare. I'm going to try to squeeze in a day working from home to cut down on the hours someone else watches him. I think to accomplish this efficiency things are going to have to shift, and fall to the wayside. One of those things is most likely going to be this blog. I used to be able to (don't tell my boss) blog during my down time at work and just work and extra half hour, or check your blogs at lunch. But not anymore. So we'll see what happens. I'll keep the site up and maybe I'll blog when Simon's in bed!

Also, I believe that my kid has the right to choose whether or not he wants to have an internet presence, so I don't know if I should blog about him. Let's face it, there's not going to be too much else for me to blog about over the next few months!

Is this entry too serious? This mom stuff is crazy and keeping me so busy! But in a good way. We'll see what happens.

Posted by jen at June 13, 2007 09:05 PM

Comments

It makes absolute sense to me. Enjoy your mommyhood! I'll probably feel the same way as you when I'm in your shoes

Posted by: yaiAnn at June 14, 2007 12:04 AM

It's totally natural for you to want to spend as much time as possible with that adorable child of yours. I think you should whatever feels right for you! We will still be here even if you post sporadically or not at all. :)

Posted by: Carrie at June 14, 2007 09:22 AM

OK, I agree that you've got to do whatever is best for you (and your adorable kung fu master). But, selfishly speaking, don't cut us off cold turkey, OK? Sporadic posts would still be fine :) Or show up at a fiber festival once in a while...

Posted by: Sarah at June 14, 2007 09:53 AM

Simon is definitely a higher priority, and if the blog has to slip by the wayside that's understandable. But you can add me to the crowd who hope you don't become a total stranger.

Posted by: jodi at June 14, 2007 10:39 AM

Totally understandable. But, I second the "don't leave us completely!" motion. We'd miss you. Since we can't actually see you in person, we have to rely on the internet. And if it only happens once a month? So be it. There are "real life" friends that i don't talk to that often ;)

Posted by: Stacey at June 14, 2007 01:42 PM

Ditto...stick around when you can! I'm about to be in the same boat as you here pretty soon, so I can relate. I'm already pretty crappy about blogging right now, so we'll see. But we don't want to lose touch with ya!

Posted by: sarah b. at June 14, 2007 09:39 PM

I get it...I used to blog while Michael slept...it was a great way for me to feel connected since I stayed home.
Now that he is a bit older and not napping that time is taken up...I do miss my blog buddies but we have so much going on now that I just don't get the time...and when I do the guilt from all the other things I should be doing gets the best of me.So my opinion is I understand,Hope all goes well back at work and hope to see a post every once in awhile. It has been fun peeping into your life...you are very witty and I will miss your commentary on life!

Posted by: mrsgregw at June 18, 2007 02:22 PM

Posted by: mrsgregw at June 18, 2007 02:23 PM

It all makes sense to me. Take good care of you, Mini Lug and Mr Lug and everything else will take care of itself.

Big hug!
j

Posted by: canknitian at June 19, 2007 10:29 PM